Sometimes I wonder if having my son so young was actually a blessing in disguise. When my son was a newborn baby I suffered post-partum depression and thankfully it went away relatively quick. I loved my son dearly, but I can’t deny that I felt trapped. I was scared! I wanted to be a teenager and do the things my friends were doing. My life completely changed, but I didn’t allow anything to keep me from my long term goals. I finished school and got a Bachelors in Psychology. I did almost everything my friends did. However, I still felt tied down and came down on myself often. I felt that I was missing out on a lot. My son is now a teenager and although these years are very tough, they aren’t as tough as the earlier years. It’s a different dynamic now. I suppose the fact that he is older and more independent has a lot to do with it. Yet, this time, feels like a time for renewal, a time to start over again; to do the things that I wanted to do before, but couldn’t because I had a young child to look after. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not interested in binge drinking or frat parties, what I’m talking about is personal growth, time to look after me. Now, I can’t help to feel blessed that I can do that for myself, just like my friends and other women did when they were younger, but with the added bonus that I’ve experienced parenthood. Reason I say this is because I look around and see other women my age so desperate to be in relationships in order to have children. Granted, many women want to be childless and have designed their lives that way, but many others have not. I see the frustrations and sense of unworthiness in some and I can’t help to feel relieved that I don’t have to worry about that. I’m not preoccupied with relationships or the dating world, believe me, I’ve had my share, but I don’t feel any less of a woman because it hasn’t all turned out like a fairy tale. At this time in my life, I am concerned with raising my son, finishing grad school and embarking on a new career. How much better can life get for this teen mom!